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Sunday, August 8th, 2004
7:34 pm
I am thinking about making a new journal and erasing this one. too many stupid people have this address, so this will be the last entry and I will add everyone who is on this one, it will be friends only.

Amanda

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Saturday, August 7th, 2004
11:54 am
"your driving me nuts, you are a bridesmaid, how late are you going to be, can't he get a ride? gezsus, and you don't have money for a dress."

Well fuck I'm sorry if I have bills to pay and I can't just go buying shit, and can't just beg to borrow. fuck that shit. i wish i had balls.

amanda

current mood: pissed off

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Friday, August 6th, 2004
10:39 pm
Today was pretty good, i came home after taking Sean to work and Becky ( my boss ) called and left a message to call her back, so here I am thinking she is going to fire me I call her. She picks up and the first thing she said was, "I am sorry about last night, I wasn't mad at you, just frustrated, just 5 minutes before you called i had a call in, I hope you understand that I am sorry" so we talked for like 30 minutes, it was alright. I am still going to take that daycare job, and work the weekends at Pine Meadows

Another thinng that sucks is, my dress comes in the 18th and i need the money and i don't have it so she will have to pay for it or i cannot be in the wedding. Another thing that pisses me off is my mom and dad, my aunt joys BROTHER, was not invited, why?

I am watching Miss Teen USA, kinda cool I guess... and listening to Cold- Wasted Years live on Jay Leno, took a whole 6 hours to download.

I just took a shower. Blah Blah. I own your souls.

amanda

current mood: horny

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Thursday, August 5th, 2004
8:14 pm
Well today I took Sean to work and then went job searching I applied at Marwood Manor, Big Lots, And the Assisted Living home up by the mall. Get homw and there's a message, it was the daycare calling for an interview so I went to that, we talked for about a half hour to an hour and she said I had some of the best answers and she could tel i was experienced. So she will be calling me on Wednesday for the training class and if I pass it I have a full-time job, that pays WEEKLY, she asked how much I wanted I told her 7.00 and hour it is a 5-9 job i am pretty sure 5 days a week, I will be making more monry there in a week at 2 dollars less, which is cool I hope I pass, it would kick ass.

My Grandma went to the casino with my mom agian, they always complain about mot having any money, well why do you think.

Okay well I guess I will take a shower.

Amanda

current mood: lazy

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Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
11:41 pm
Sean looks so cute playing his game, awww. I wasplaying Sonic but I need a break from go ol' Sonic he is starting to piss me off.

I went to the ER tonite and got my eye checked out, I have pink eye and something else wrong with it. I don't know. I hate eyes, I hate contacts. yay.

I love Sean, he is so hot, I want this guy. Oh that's right I have him, and you don't so HA.

Humm not much to say today, I can't go back to work until Sunday which sucks balls, assholes.

Amanda

current mood: horny

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Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
3:03 pm
yay i finially went to sleep

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8:44 am
I fucking hate the past, and looking back on shtupid shit that don't matter, so why do I do it?

I was going to go to the emergency room for my fucking eyes but I almost went into a ditch because I can't see shit, so I just cme back to Sean's. i can't see shit and can't shut it. I am fucking tired, Hey at least i got 2 1/2 hours of sleep.

hehe Beadley and Sons has called here like 3 or 4 times and I just let it ring, I hate fraklin, he deserves to die.

amanda

current mood: tired

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Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
11:08 pm

Well last night was fun. And all of you know what I'm sayin' than :o A big thanks to G for pretty much payin for the run down sexin motel, the sexin bed has pee on it so we just did it on the sleeping bed. But hey no detail here, more detail will be heard if your G. Because I love grossing his ass out.

Happy Birthday Sean.

One day I hope to wake up and look like Nicole Ritchie, mmmm I love her. But not as much as I love Sean, because you all know this. If not you should should all be shot for not knowing this.

I am going now just a little update to let you all know I did not drop off the face of the earth yet, I know a disapointment, you'll get over it and move on with your lifes, I hope so...

Sean is hot, and I got pink eye. My ass hurts. I am getting rid of AOL. Name should be the same at least I hope so. If not fuck that shit.

Bye, Amanda



current mood: sore

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Friday, July 23rd, 2004
9:50 am - Shit Hell Fuck Damn

Well the 27th is like 4 days away. I can not wait, this day will be the best. Finially one day Sean and I can be alone together, it's about time. And one of these days coming up soon we are going to the Zoo, this should be fun. I haven't been to a zoo in like 2 or 3 years. So yeah.

Tomorrow is the annual family reunion, which shouldn't be so bad this year cause Sean will be there, they stop getting fun after 17, because then you can't join in on kids games :( Last year one of the games consisted of mom dad and daughter and dad held a pop bottle over mom and we had hoses, to object was to get a less water on mom as possiable, I took it upon my own hands to "miss" the bottle and soak my mom from head to toe, she wasn't too happy but me and my dad were. Yay.

Tomorrow Sean and I are going to Gebratior.. wow I can't spell that at all. This should be fun, oh yes it should.

I am so tired it's unreal, but I can not seem to sleep much these days, like for the past 3 or 4 days I have this dream that won't stop, like everyone will be killed in very sick ways and yet the only person who dosen't die is Alan, and I will wake up to stop it and close my eyes to go back to sleep and it starts where it stops, and then I'll wake up for the day and go back to sleep that night and BAM left off right where it stoped. So I can't really sleep. I think I am programming it without knowing or something has to be going on there. Gayness.

Okay I am done for now, I think this could be the longest journal I have wrote, with out even knowing I am dumb sometimes, lack of sleep does this to me.

Amanda



current mood: tired

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Wednesday, July 21st, 2004
9:33 am

 Okay well I finially bought 50 First Dates, and fuck whoever said it was going to be a bad movie, I cried. It was a very good movie. So it make sme wonder if I am going to like Along Came Polly, everyone is also saying this movie sucked ass. We'll see about that.

I also bought Where the Red Fern Grows, the movie and quite surprisingly the movie was almost as good as the book. I hate the ending, another movie I cried to.

Then we watched Eraser, aww Arnold. I think he is the first guy I don't have a crush on that is a actor :o Werid. He is so cool a manly man.

Sean gets excited over zombies, monsters, and clint howard like I do with Free Willy and 50 First Dates, I didn't say anything but it was hot. He is hot. I love this guy!

Anyways I am done to no friends, family and my boyfriend, Yay for me!

Bye Bye

Amanda



current mood: tired

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Thursday, July 15th, 2004
1:10 pm

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1:09 pm

Not to much is going on. I just got out of the shower and making some macaroni and cheese. I am al ready for work, I just don't want to go. It's been so long. Thankfully I only work 5-9's this weekend and I did end up getting  Monday off so I don't go one week stright work. Rosa swithed me. And Angel said today if Becky won't give me the 27th off she'll trade me days so I can be with Sean. Yes, the 27th is going to kick ass.

I get paid today and it is all gone, I think I had like 10 dollas left over, gayness.

Anyways Days of Our Lifes is back on and I have to pee.

Amanda



current mood: sick

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Wednesday, July 14th, 2004
1:54 pm
Well I haven't updated in a while.

I just got back from Cedar Point yesterday morning and for the most part it was fun. I still hate my sister and think she is a complete slut but hey what can you do. Not a damn thing. Like 6 people on the dragster got hurt right before we went on. it was kinda scary, the cable fread, i don't even know how to spell it.

I missed Sean, but I am with him now so I am okay.

Anyways thats about all i have for now, because I know what else to say, other the franklin is a complete dick sucker, and acts liek he is 12.

amanda

current mood: happy

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Monday, July 5th, 2004
3:02 pm

Well I came home this morning only to come 2 inches from hitting our female emu who escaped. So we tried to get her. No luck back into the woods. Now they are talking about shooting her. Because she will attack.

Last night blew some balls. Big ones at that. We went to Sean's sisters house, that was fun. Then we went to Super K. After we went to toco bell. then my tire blew and blah blah. Not fucking fun.

anyways thats all now.

amanda



current mood: pissed off

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Sunday, July 4th, 2004
9:28 pm

Okay, July 4th blows shit fuck. And I hate being nagged by family because I had to work. Fuck America, and fuck family bullshit. I hate shit.  I hate life right now. Very much so. I hate being nagged. Oh my fucking God it never ends. February could not come any sooner!

 

fuck it all

amanda



current mood: depressed

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Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
1:15 pm - That dream of the gun, Caught I can't run....
Damn it all to hell I cannot surprise Sean if my life depended on it. He knows everything. In ways its good, but not when you are trying to surprise him!

It's been almost a week and I am still listening to Sierra Swan ft Scooter Ward.

I finially did fucking laundry!
angel sai along came polly sucked. this makes me sad.
and thats about all.

amanda

current mood: blank

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Tuesday, June 22nd, 2004
1:11 pm - Your wish has come true, I'm broken
Last night was pretty good, i went to kmart and bought some things, like a new pair of scrubs and sean's annervisery gift, next week i am going to get his birthday present, well one of them at least, the other on eis going to be a big surprise, as long as i don't open my big mouth. last night he told me i could get the dog, and that made me happy, AND he bought me the wedding singer!!!!! one of my favorites! man i love that guy! in some ways i was hoping to see him tonite but what can you do? i'll see him wednesday. february needs to come more sooner. I hate waiting so long.

work time yay
amanda

current mood: loved

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Friday, June 18th, 2004
5:44 am
Okay this is the last public post that is being made. if you want to be a friends im me at aol- stumpmetiny. and i will think about it until the fuck off.

current mood: pissed off

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Wednesday, June 16th, 2004
10:05 am
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What is your name?:amanda pearl gould
Are you named after anyone?:yes, my great grandma pearl
What's your screename?:stumpmetiny
Would you name a child of yours after you?:nope
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:jeremy
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:I only have one friend and I don't want her name.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?:yes my freaking last name its gould (gouhld) not GOLD, Gold does NOT have a freaking U!!
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:no, it's there for a reason
Basics
Your gender::female, at least the last time i checked i was
Straight/Gay/Bi::isn't everyone these days? Bi-
Single?:nope, attatched at the hip
If not, do you want to be?:hell no i am happy
Birthdate::2-2-85
Your age::19
Age you act::19
Age you wish you were::21
Your height::5'4
Eye color::They change colors, they go from green to blue to brown to hazel....depends
Happy with it?:yes because it freaks people out
Hair color::brown
Happy with it?:yes it finially looks good
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous::righty
Your living arrangement::a house
Your family::my grandma
Have any pets?:oh yeah we run a zoo here, i have three cats, two rats, two dogs, 5 fish, and 2 emus
Whats your job?:pine meadows assisted living in armada
Piercings?:yes belly button
Tattoos?:yes 5 of them on my back
Obsessions?:sean and cold
Addictions?:cold and sean
Do you speak another language?:ja das ist gut
Have a favorite quote?:"tiny fucked a stump"
Do you have a webpage?:not anymore :(
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?:not that much anymore
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:very rarely
Do you have any secrets?:yes, but if i tell you it wouldn't be a secert....
Do you hate yourself?:i used to not to much anymore.
Do you like your handwriting?:sometimes its constantly changing
Do you have any bad habits?:swearing..
What is the compliment you get from most people?:"your hot"
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:answers
What's your biggest fear?:dying before i accomplish what i want to do
Can you sing?:i can sing better than william hung.. so in other words i suck
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:no, why would i have to
Are you a loner?:i can be..
What are your #1 priorities in life?:work, family, sean
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:i would think so
Are you a daredevil?:no to much anymore
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:self consincence, and esteem
Are you passive or agressive?:both
Do you have a journal?:common sense here. of course i do
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:being able to tell if someone is lying is a weakness of mine because i am so paranoid that i think i am being lyed to all the time, strength theres a few
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?:to get to know more people
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:i am a lot better now that im with sean
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:passing school with flying colors when i knew i could do it....
Do you think life has been good so far?:better these days then it has been
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:that you can do it if you put your mind to it, everything that is worng IS ALL in your head..
What do you like the most about your body?:i'm starting to like it all these days
And least?:nothing really..
Do you think you are good looking?:i think i am freakin hot
Are you confident?:more and more everyday i am becoming
What is the fictional character you are most like?:baby firefly..she counts oh yes she does
Are you perceived wrongly?:yesi tend to think so
Do You...
Smoke?:no
Do drugs?:no
Read the newspaper?:yes, everyday
Pray?:i have a few times but not to much of it
Go to church?:nope, i don't think to go anywhere in life you have to sit and listen to someone preach about what's wrong with this and that. i belive in god thats all that matters.
Talk to strangers who IM you?:i usually tell them to fuck off
Sleep with stuffed animals?:nope
Take walks in the rain?:yes, its so relaxing
Talk to people even though you hate them?:i admit it i do, i feel bad just ignoring them
Drive?:yes
Like to drive fast?:who me? no, ive only been pulle dover 10 times for speeding :O
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?:i dont know, i think i do at times
Hurt yourself?:yes, many many times not in a long time though
Been out of the country?:nope
Eaten something that made other people sick?:yes, and i thought it was funny
Been in love?:i am right now :-* sean
Done drugs?:yes, i have in the past
Gone skinny dipping?:yes, oh good ol' days in the old pond..lucky thing saw me naked
Had a medical emergency?:yes i have
Had surgery?:yup, and it's not fun
Ran away from home?:i think i did a few times
Played strip poker?:oh yeah.gayest game ever they always rig it so you end up naked, dont plan on playing it anymore though
Gotten beaten up?:if you count being sucker pucnhed b y a slut then yes. long story
Beaten someone up?:yes, but its also a long story
Been picked on?:who hasn't?
Been on stage?:oh yeah scariest thing in the world really
Slept outdoors?:come on now if you haven't camped your lame
Thought about suicide?:not to much anymore
Pulled an all nighter?:oh yeah quite a few times
If yes, what is your record?:32 hours
Gone one day without food?:yes, living with aunt joy
Talked on the phone all night?:of course
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?:yes, it wasn't that hard really, now when i sleep with sean i can't resist
Slept all day?:yes
Killed someone?:well i'm not going to get into this one...
Made out with a stranger?:nope
Had sex with a stranger?:hell no
Thought you're going crazy?:oh yeah everyday i think that
Kissed the same sex?:big deal, yes
Done anything sexual with the same sex?:yes i have
Been betrayed?:who hasn't
Had a dream that came true?:yes. a few of them.
Broken the law?:i think everyone does at least once in their life..
Met a famous person?:yep a lot of them
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:yes, but they run out in front of me so what and i susposed to do
On purpose?:no
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?:yes, and i haven't and i won't
Stolen anything?:yes
Been on radio/tv?:i've been on tv
Been in a mosh-pit?:yes, they are truely the gayest thing ive ever saw
Had a nervous breakdown?:yes
Bungee jumped?:hell no
Had a dream that kept coming back?:yes many many times, damn kangaroos
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?:yes
Miracles?:in some cases yes
Astrology?:agian in some cases yes
Magic?:no
God?:yes
Satan?:of course
Santa?:no, my mom told me santa wasn't real ;(
Ghosts?:yes
Luck?:yes, i have every case of BAD luck
Love at first sight?:that's a hard one to describe
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:yes, its true really
Witches?:no
Easter bunny?:nope agian another schattered dream
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:there is no end damn it ive looked
Do you wish on stars?:no
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:no
Do you think God has a gender?:yes, i mean do you have a gender?
Do you believe in organized religion?:no
Where do you think we go when we die?:you can go to your heavan or you can go to your hell
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:yes
Who is your best friend?:kim
Who's the one person that knows most about you?:kim
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:"good luck" it went a little differnt from that but mr. mitchell was kick ass
Your favourite inside joke?:fuck me tiny fuck me
Thing you're picked on most about?:my damn forehead
Who's your longest known friend?:kim
Newest?:no one
Shyest?:kim
Funniest?:sean
Sweetest?:well damn it sean and kim
Closest?:as a friend kim and my love sean
Weirdest?:both
Smartest?:sean
Ditziest?:none of my 2 friends
Friends you miss being close to the most?:amanda
Last person you talked to online?:sean last night
Who do you talk to most online?:sean
Who are you on the phone with most?:proably chad kent
Who do you trust most?:sean and kim
Who listens to your problems?:kim
Who do you fight most with?:neither
Who's the nicest?:both
Who's the most outgoing?:sean
Who's the best singer?:sean
Who's on your shit-list?:cliton faye and missy
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?:no
Who's your second family?:kims
Do you always feel understood?:no
Who's the loudest friend?:kim
Do you trust others easily?:nope
Who's house were you last at?:seans
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in::sean
Do your friends know you?:yeah that why i only have 2
Friend that lives farthest away::jayson
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?:no
What do you find romantic?:sean
Turn-on?:sean
Turn-off?:thinkng about two onions doing it ;)
First kiss?:oh god i think it was dan groner in 10th grade
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?:i dont feel bad at all its better than dating them and not carign for them
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going:yes
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out:who really cares
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv:yes
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:they say they do but then only one that matters is sean
What is best about the opposite sex?:sean is the best of the opposite sex
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:most are all assholes
What's the last present someone gave you?:sean bought mw games and the diva video with trish in it :0
Are you in love?:i am
Do you consider your significant other hot?:damn right
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?:im not to sure really
You wanted to kill?:clinton
That you laughed at?:sean
That laughed at you?:sean
That turned you on?:last night sean
You went shopping with?:damn sean
That broke your heart?:sean h
To disappoint you?:sean h
To ask you out?:sean
To make you cry?:my mom
To brighten up your day?:sean
That you thought about?:sean
You saw a movie with?:sean
You talked to on the phone?:chad kent
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:sean last night
You saw?:sean
You lost?:ray
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:sean
Will it be with your significant other?:yes
Or some random person?:
What are you wearing right now?:tank top and shorts
Body part you're touching right now::nothing
What are you worried about right now?:sleeping
What book are you reading?:none damn it :(
What's on your mousepad?:i dont have one
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling::i love sean micheal farquhar
Are you bored?:yes i am
Are you tired?:very
Are you talking to anyone online?:no
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?:no
Are you lonely or content?:content
Are you listening to music?: no

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so yeah last night was the best night.

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Tuesday, June 15th, 2004
9:53 am
would you have sex in a public place?:yes
would you have sex in a pond, beach or lake?:yes
would you have sex in front of your friends?:in another room yes
would you have sex in the same room with other people having sex?:no
do you like sex or love it?:love it
have you ever had an orgasm?:yes
have you ever had a really bad sex experience?:nope
do you have any regrets about the people you have had sex with?:yes
would you try anything at least once?:oh yeah
would you sleep with a someone of the opposite sex?:...yes
would you use toys?:yes
have you ever been ridden backwards or have ridden someone backwards?:yes its very good too
would you try anal sex at least one time before saying thats gross?:i wouldn't say it was gross
would you go down on your partner and like it?:oh yeah
would you cheat on your parter if they werent giving you what you need?:hell no sex isn't everything...
do you like it doggie style?:yes
do you like it rough?:yes
do you like it fast?:yes
do you like quickies?:no, but a quickie for me is about 1 1/2 hours so its all good
do you like it slow?:yes
do you like to take command if the situation?:yes
are you controlling?:sometimes
do you like your hair pulled?:yes
do you like your ass slapped?:yes
are you romantic or do you like it rough?:both
would you have sex with anyone that gave it to you?:fuck no
are you picky about who you have sex with?:yes, only sean
do you mind lesbian porn?:i will see it,oh yes i will
do you like porn in general?:from what ive seen yes
have you ever masterbated?:hell yeah almost every night
have you ever masterbated for someone else?:i do it under the blanket when seans on the computer...hehe
do you like playing with someone else?:yes
do you like giving or recieving head?:yes
did you get a kick out of this quiz? i hope so.:i could

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